A face without freckles is like a night without stars...

Starr is me, I am her, and she is I. She is so much more than she thinks she is. If you asked her, she would say she is just a mom, wife, daughter, sister, and friend. However, she has been told many times, that she is more than that. Her loving Heavenly Father reminds her all the time, that she has gifts and talents to share with the world, and that like unto her name, she should let them so shine before others, that they may light the day, like the stars light the night. She is passionate, loyal, and gentle all at the same time.

Often when people see her they don't see a gentle, quiet and fragile woman; however, they are wrong. Deep down inside that's who she is, and only those who are truly looking, will see who she really is. If you happen to make it through her exosphere, consider yourself to be a blessed individual. Not many make it there, but when they do, they have a permanent place. Her caring ways, allow her to see things in the world a bit differently than others, unique to a fault.

She truly sees through a darkened glass, and can see beyond the darkness, and find hope throughout the world. Beyond her large, thick exterior are gems within her that are priceless, that are only valued on a spiritual level. Buried within the layers of her atmosphere are different pieces of her puzzle, and even she has yet to put all of the pieces into place. May you enjoy each piece she writes; they truly are the picture into her puzzle.

My Children

I am the mama of two all encompassing children, who own every ounce of my heart and soul, even the part their dad holds onto gets kicked out at times when one of the two does something magical to melt my heart. LillyRose is our precious big girl now, who is a whopping 6 years old! From the moment she wakes in the morning until her head hits the pillow at night in one way or another she reminds us that she holds a status the rest of us don't: Miss Diva Wildfire. Her independent nature, and natural ability to question the world around her has given her the actual gift of life, as every family member knew when she was born at 2lbs 6oz, a fighter since the day she was born.

Our son Abraham Jr. is our love bug. He has eyes that melt every inch of any woman's soul, Look out Ladies! At 5 years old, he is such a smarty pants and I LOVE it! His father recently said he had a genius on his hands, I didn't dispute him or his shining pride I felt emanating from his smile. My son is like the coals beneath a beautiful fire, and often times these parts of his personality help me through my days and "ignite my own fires within myself." Like his sister he too came into this world a fighter at 3lbs 6oz, and his tantrums prove to us that life wouldn't be as interesting without him.

My Children "run" the show, even though we would never admit that to them! That would result in utter defeat in our battle of parenthood. Our days revolve around their schedules, routines, likes, dislikes and even the amount of dishes in the sink when mommy has friends over! My oh my! ;) Together they make up the valves within our hearts, and are the blood circulating through our veins. We are extremely blessed to be their parents and though parenthood has tested us in ways we never imagined, I know we'd be lost without it.

Monday, August 7, 2017

Even Superwoman has her Kryptonite....

Have you ever felt like you didn't really know who you were? Have you ever looked at your life and evaluated what truly matters in it? I have done this so many times throughout my life, and each time that I do, I discover new things about myself, that I wasn't aware of prior, and had I not taken the time to look at myself, I would have missed out on the blessing and opportunity to discover something truly amazing about myself and the world around me.

Awareness puts us in this amazing position, to be able to be, more authentic with who we truly are. Each of us has the permission to change, to become, to define who we truly want to be in life. For some it may take a lifetime to figure this out, for others, they may enjoy the journey along the way, and still yet, those who just understand from a young age that life is short, and eternal.

I've known my whole life, from a young age, that life was short, challenging and unpredictable. Yet, however unpredictable life may be, one thing that is certain in my own life, is the Love that surrounds me each time I need it the most. When I've needed and ASKED for an abundance of love from God, he has performed small, but mighty acts of kindness just when I needed it the most, likely by the hands of his daughters who serve him. It is through their hands, kindness and support, that I feel of God's love.

When I feel broken, it is God's Love that gets me back up off the floor, and helps me find the ground underneath my feet again. The discovery I made in this moment of my life today, made me realize with more depth, the woman who I really am becoming. We are allowed to change, grow, and develop as we mature into the beautiful individual we are designed to be. When we learn to feel broken, and allow healing to transform us from that brokenness, it is a moment of conscious self discovery.

I had a rough day, I felt exhausted physically and emotionally, I felt overwhelmed with my role as a mother, wife, daughter, woman, friend. I didn't want to slow down, I didn't want to break, and for the longest time, I haven't want to break, because I wasn't sure if I was strong enough to put all the pieces back together, once I admitted to myself that I had allowed myself to break, even if just for a moment in time, I was able to let it all go, let it out. I found the strength within myself to ask for support, and the courage to just admit that I needed someone in that very moment to steady me, walk with me, and just understand that even the strongest of women, can't bear it all alone.

Kidney Disease is trying to take my happiness and for a moment, I thought I might just give up, then I decided to keep running my marathon no matter what. I'm allowed to have rough days, weeks, and months. It's the love I give and receive that allows me to see happiness in those days, weeks or months.

I hope you enjoyed,  and that these words are found in light and love.


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