A face without freckles is like a night without stars...

Starr is me, I am her, and she is I. She is so much more than she thinks she is. If you asked her, she would say she is just a mom, wife, daughter, sister, and friend. However, she has been told many times, that she is more than that. Her loving Heavenly Father reminds her all the time, that she has gifts and talents to share with the world, and that like unto her name, she should let them so shine before others, that they may light the day, like the stars light the night. She is passionate, loyal, and gentle all at the same time.

Often when people see her they don't see a gentle, quiet and fragile woman; however, they are wrong. Deep down inside that's who she is, and only those who are truly looking, will see who she really is. If you happen to make it through her exosphere, consider yourself to be a blessed individual. Not many make it there, but when they do, they have a permanent place. Her caring ways, allow her to see things in the world a bit differently than others, unique to a fault.

She truly sees through a darkened glass, and can see beyond the darkness, and find hope throughout the world. Beyond her large, thick exterior are gems within her that are priceless, that are only valued on a spiritual level. Buried within the layers of her atmosphere are different pieces of her puzzle, and even she has yet to put all of the pieces into place. May you enjoy each piece she writes; they truly are the picture into her puzzle.

My Children

I am the mama of two all encompassing children, who own every ounce of my heart and soul, even the part their dad holds onto gets kicked out at times when one of the two does something magical to melt my heart. LillyRose is our precious big girl now, who is a whopping 6 years old! From the moment she wakes in the morning until her head hits the pillow at night in one way or another she reminds us that she holds a status the rest of us don't: Miss Diva Wildfire. Her independent nature, and natural ability to question the world around her has given her the actual gift of life, as every family member knew when she was born at 2lbs 6oz, a fighter since the day she was born.

Our son Abraham Jr. is our love bug. He has eyes that melt every inch of any woman's soul, Look out Ladies! At 5 years old, he is such a smarty pants and I LOVE it! His father recently said he had a genius on his hands, I didn't dispute him or his shining pride I felt emanating from his smile. My son is like the coals beneath a beautiful fire, and often times these parts of his personality help me through my days and "ignite my own fires within myself." Like his sister he too came into this world a fighter at 3lbs 6oz, and his tantrums prove to us that life wouldn't be as interesting without him.

My Children "run" the show, even though we would never admit that to them! That would result in utter defeat in our battle of parenthood. Our days revolve around their schedules, routines, likes, dislikes and even the amount of dishes in the sink when mommy has friends over! My oh my! ;) Together they make up the valves within our hearts, and are the blood circulating through our veins. We are extremely blessed to be their parents and though parenthood has tested us in ways we never imagined, I know we'd be lost without it.

Monday, November 7, 2016

The mind-body disconnect and what happens between.

We live in a world of disconnect, where we don't know our neighbors names, or the location in which our food was grown, nor do we actually go out of our way to find these things out. The "whole" person is taught in classes, found in massage parlor's, and seems to be distant relative of who human being's once were. I am truly a person of "what's the meaning of life, where do we come from and where are we going?" I am a woman who values human interaction, the bright side of colors, and beautiful songs in all their varieties. I am an artist, writer and poet who thinks to much, ponders every experience or thought possible. Yet, I too am disconnected. What caused this disconnect, and how do I find my connection to life again? One moment, breath, and thought at a time. I must be aware of what I am thinking and what I am allowing into my mind.

Each day that I am more aware of this connection, will be one day closer to the mind-body connection I know that can be had for myself. To tap into the origin of one's own disconnect leads down a path self reflection and awareness. In my own life, it was a traumatic experience as a child that prompted the mind-body disconnect. My mind needed to be somewhere my body wasn't in order to make in through the life experience I was given. At that time, it served it's purpose, however, I am realizing now that it's purpose has been served and I can once again reintroduce my mind to my body to create the whole person, I want to become.

To admit to oneself and to others, that your mind is disconnected from your own body; feels overwhelming at first, as well as "weird." However, this is my reality and has been my reality for quite some time. My first session with Guided Yoga taught me quite a bit about this disconnect that was going on. Because my mind was open to this fact, and my heart was ready to grow, I was able to recognize where my mind was in relation to my body.

The session that I took was a gentle and loving hour of keeping my mind aware of what my body was feeling. At first glace, I thought to myself, "what am I REALLY going to get out of this?" However, by the end of the night, I realized two important things about myself. First, my mind was "far away" from my physical body; and second, I wanted that connection to feel closer to one another. The only way that this connection would be reestablished was through healing, openness and establishing a daily connection between the two. None of this process has felt emotionally "great" for me, however, it has felt needed, and the more I connect, the easier it becomes. The more I let go of, the closer I feel to being whole. I have to be kind to myself, have patience and love for my own life experiences.

Finding peace amid the chaos is a talent I haven't mastered, but I hope to one day. For now, I just hope I can just be and be happy with me.

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