A face without freckles is like a night without stars...

Starr is me, I am her, and she is I. She is so much more than she thinks she is. If you asked her, she would say she is just a mom, wife, daughter, sister, and friend. However, she has been told many times, that she is more than that. Her loving Heavenly Father reminds her all the time, that she has gifts and talents to share with the world, and that like unto her name, she should let them so shine before others, that they may light the day, like the stars light the night. She is passionate, loyal, and gentle all at the same time.


Often when people see her they don't see a gentle, quiet and fragile woman; however, they are wrong. Deep down inside that's who she is, and only those who are truly looking, will see who she really is. If you happen to make it through her exosphere, consider yourself to be a blessed individual. Not many make it there, but when they do, they have a permanent place. Her caring ways, allow her to see things in the world a bit differently than others, unique to a fault.


She truly sees through a darkened glass, and can see beyond the darkness, and find hope throughout the world. Beyond her large, thick exterior are gems within her that are priceless, that are only valued on a spiritual level. Buried within the layers of her atmosphere are different pieces of her puzzle, and even she has yet to put all of the pieces into place. May you enjoy each piece she writes; they truly are the picture into her puzzle.

My Children

I am the mama of two all encompassing children, who own every ounce of my heart and soul, even the part their dad holds onto gets kicked out at times when one of the two does something magical to melt my heart. LillyRose is our precious big girl now, who is a whopping 6 years old! From the moment she wakes in the morning until her head hits the pillow at night in one way or another she reminds us that she holds a status the rest of us don't: Miss Diva Wildfire. Her independent nature, and natural ability to question the world around her has given her the actual gift of life, as every family member knew when she was born at 2lbs 6oz, a fighter since the day she was born.


Our son Abraham Jr. is our love bug. He has eyes that melt every inch of any woman's soul, Look out Ladies! At 5 years old, he is such a smarty pants and I LOVE it! His father recently said he had a genius on his hands, I didn't dispute him or his shining pride I felt emanating from his smile. My son is like the coals beneath a beautiful fire, and often times these parts of his personality help me through my days and "ignite my own fires within myself." Like his sister he too came into this world a fighter at 3lbs 6oz, and his tantrums prove to us that life wouldn't be as interesting without him.


My Children "run" the show, even though we would never admit that to them! That would result in utter defeat in our battle of parenthood. Our days revolve around their schedules, routines, likes, dislikes and even the amount of dishes in the sink when mommy has friends over! My oh my! ;) Together they make up the valves within our hearts, and are the blood circulating through our veins. We are extremely blessed to be their parents and though parenthood has tested us in ways we never imagined, I know we'd be lost without it.

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Love

Love. How do we know we have felt it, and when do we know to give it. I have felt true love a few times in my life. The truest form of Love I have ever felt comes from God. His presence in my life has given me an abundance of clarity and happiness. When I was younger I used to be more willing to accept love, and to believe in it. Life, over time gradually created this shell around my heart, and the more hurt I experienced, the more closed off my heart became. Over time I realized that my ability to recognize love in my life, started to diminish. It wasn't until I reconnected with God, that my heart began to heal from all the anger, pain and resentment I felt at the hurt that I'd experienced through life on earth. What amazes me most about this revelation in my life is this: those that have a direct and passionate relationship with God are those that I find the most comfort in. I find comfort in their likeness to God's characteristics, and I find happiness in the willingness they have to give freely of their own love, just for the sake of loving someone. I have been blessed many times in my recent life to experience this type of love. On so many levels I feel as though I have been given more love than I have the ability to duplicate. However, at the same I know that my relationship with God is firm, and spending time in his presence allows me to fully realize the potential I have to become more and more like him. Because of this realization I am aware that the love I give is from the purest place of my heart, and that it comes from God and his energy and I understand that it's okay to actually feel love without expectation. My heart and mind cannot stop thinking about this love that I have been given. It has without a doubt changed my perspective about life, and what my purpose is. It has helped me find new ways to find happiness. It has given me a renewed sense of hope. God's love can be felt if we allow ourselves to feel worthy enough to receive of that love wherever we may find it. Sometimes, I have found that I don't feel good enough to receive pure love. Who am I to really be loved this way. Who am I to feel this happy? Who am I to NOT feel this way though? I am created of God and his creation is in me and therefore I am worthy of feeling happy, and being loved. So often when I experience something new, and it feels good, it scares me. Seriously. Maybe, I am the only person that has ever felt that way? I tend to run away from good things in my life because I am not used to feeling that way. I am learning to just allow it in my life, without running away from experiencing happiness and God's love. More difficult to do than I thought it would be actually. Also, I am learning that just because the world will hurt me doesn't mean that I have to stop allowing God's love into my life, nor do I have to halt the happiness I've created based solely on the hardships my heart has faced past or present. Even, as I type this though, I know that allowing this to become reality is more difficult that it seems, or is it? I've always felt that I was quite a complicated person, maybe I need to learn to simplify? I've learned about Love this week, and I feel happier because of it. And I am trying to let that happiness become a permanent part of my life. I am grateful for love, and God's decision to create us to give and receive love. Food for though ya'll. ;) Light and Love, Starr

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