A face without freckles is like a night without stars...

Starr is me, I am her, and she is I. She is so much more than she thinks she is. If you asked her, she would say she is just a mom, wife, daughter, sister, and friend. However, she has been told many times, that she is more than that. Her loving Heavenly Father reminds her all the time, that she has gifts and talents to share with the world, and that like unto her name, she should let them so shine before others, that they may light the day, like the stars light the night. She is passionate, loyal, and gentle all at the same time.

Often when people see her they don't see a gentle, quiet and fragile woman; however, they are wrong. Deep down inside that's who she is, and only those who are truly looking, will see who she really is. If you happen to make it through her exosphere, consider yourself to be a blessed individual. Not many make it there, but when they do, they have a permanent place. Her caring ways, allow her to see things in the world a bit differently than others, unique to a fault.

She truly sees through a darkened glass, and can see beyond the darkness, and find hope throughout the world. Beyond her large, thick exterior are gems within her that are priceless, that are only valued on a spiritual level. Buried within the layers of her atmosphere are different pieces of her puzzle, and even she has yet to put all of the pieces into place. May you enjoy each piece she writes; they truly are the picture into her puzzle.

My Children

I am the mama of two all encompassing children, who own every ounce of my heart and soul, even the part their dad holds onto gets kicked out at times when one of the two does something magical to melt my heart. LillyRose is our precious big girl now, who is a whopping 6 years old! From the moment she wakes in the morning until her head hits the pillow at night in one way or another she reminds us that she holds a status the rest of us don't: Miss Diva Wildfire. Her independent nature, and natural ability to question the world around her has given her the actual gift of life, as every family member knew when she was born at 2lbs 6oz, a fighter since the day she was born.

Our son Abraham Jr. is our love bug. He has eyes that melt every inch of any woman's soul, Look out Ladies! At 5 years old, he is such a smarty pants and I LOVE it! His father recently said he had a genius on his hands, I didn't dispute him or his shining pride I felt emanating from his smile. My son is like the coals beneath a beautiful fire, and often times these parts of his personality help me through my days and "ignite my own fires within myself." Like his sister he too came into this world a fighter at 3lbs 6oz, and his tantrums prove to us that life wouldn't be as interesting without him.

My Children "run" the show, even though we would never admit that to them! That would result in utter defeat in our battle of parenthood. Our days revolve around their schedules, routines, likes, dislikes and even the amount of dishes in the sink when mommy has friends over! My oh my! ;) Together they make up the valves within our hearts, and are the blood circulating through our veins. We are extremely blessed to be their parents and though parenthood has tested us in ways we never imagined, I know we'd be lost without it.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

la resitance...

So yesterday was a little test for me. Am I really committed to taking care of myself? All day, I thought about what it would take to make a better me. I sat and wrote, watched inspirational videos, and thought mostly. However, I wasn't DOING anything. I thought how I should throw all the junk food out of our house, how I should get up and walk, how I should listen to my hypno CD's by Deanna Nunez, how should do this, and should do that. So finally, I put the CD in. Listened. Nothing happened. Then I took a shower. Then I went for a walk, 2 miles. And then I was ready to clear out all the junk in my house related to food, sitting around tempting me. So when I woke this morning, I finally did it. I got rid of all stuff sitting around tempting me to eat unhealthy. And replaced it with stuff that is a better option for me. It feels good to know I actually did it. Now I just have to keep myself motivated throughout the day to do my walk tonight, RAIN or SHINE. We all know how the rain can deter us from putting on our walking shoes. Even though 90% of the time it rains in WA. No longer a good excuse for me anymore. I was struggling yesterday with my new choice to live a healthier lifestyle. Not sure why. It was making more emotional that ever and giving me anxiety, I tried to work through it the best way I could. I failed a few times and ate things that I shouldn't of. Hence, the reason I wanted to get rid of all the junk in the house. Not strong enough to put myself around temptation like that. LillyRose is getting big too, she is 10 pounds now. And growing fast. Cameron is hard at work. And most days works out twice a day, and is really trying hard to pass his PT test. We are enjoying parenthood, even though at times we struggle with it. Our apartment seems too small, but then last night after watching a show one Prophet Monson life, I realized how blessed we are to even have an aparment, and how thankful I am that Cameron is able to provide for us, and has the income that he does. All is well in the land of the Young clan. For today anyhow. I'll let ya know how tomorrow goes. :)

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