A face without freckles is like a night without stars...

Starr is me, I am her, and she is I. She is so much more than she thinks she is. If you asked her, she would say she is just a mom, wife, daughter, sister, and friend. However, she has been told many times, that she is more than that. Her loving Heavenly Father reminds her all the time, that she has gifts and talents to share with the world, and that like unto her name, she should let them so shine before others, that they may light the day, like the stars light the night. She is passionate, loyal, and gentle all at the same time.

Often when people see her they don't see a gentle, quiet and fragile woman; however, they are wrong. Deep down inside that's who she is, and only those who are truly looking, will see who she really is. If you happen to make it through her exosphere, consider yourself to be a blessed individual. Not many make it there, but when they do, they have a permanent place. Her caring ways, allow her to see things in the world a bit differently than others, unique to a fault.

She truly sees through a darkened glass, and can see beyond the darkness, and find hope throughout the world. Beyond her large, thick exterior are gems within her that are priceless, that are only valued on a spiritual level. Buried within the layers of her atmosphere are different pieces of her puzzle, and even she has yet to put all of the pieces into place. May you enjoy each piece she writes; they truly are the picture into her puzzle.

My Children

I am the mama of two all encompassing children, who own every ounce of my heart and soul, even the part their dad holds onto gets kicked out at times when one of the two does something magical to melt my heart. LillyRose is our precious big girl now, who is a whopping 6 years old! From the moment she wakes in the morning until her head hits the pillow at night in one way or another she reminds us that she holds a status the rest of us don't: Miss Diva Wildfire. Her independent nature, and natural ability to question the world around her has given her the actual gift of life, as every family member knew when she was born at 2lbs 6oz, a fighter since the day she was born.

Our son Abraham Jr. is our love bug. He has eyes that melt every inch of any woman's soul, Look out Ladies! At 5 years old, he is such a smarty pants and I LOVE it! His father recently said he had a genius on his hands, I didn't dispute him or his shining pride I felt emanating from his smile. My son is like the coals beneath a beautiful fire, and often times these parts of his personality help me through my days and "ignite my own fires within myself." Like his sister he too came into this world a fighter at 3lbs 6oz, and his tantrums prove to us that life wouldn't be as interesting without him.

My Children "run" the show, even though we would never admit that to them! That would result in utter defeat in our battle of parenthood. Our days revolve around their schedules, routines, likes, dislikes and even the amount of dishes in the sink when mommy has friends over! My oh my! ;) Together they make up the valves within our hearts, and are the blood circulating through our veins. We are extremely blessed to be their parents and though parenthood has tested us in ways we never imagined, I know we'd be lost without it.

Monday, June 27, 2011

A healthy gem

 This blog is dedicated to becoming a healthier person, physically, emotionally and spiritually. I think deep down inside sometimes we all struggle with our identities. Who we are? Where to do we come from? Why we are here? What is our calling in life? Each person has a different path in front of them that will answer these questions. We have past, present and future lives that we have led, are living or have yet to live and the choices we make reflect how we have lived each of these lives. Choices affect all areas of life. Choices we have made in the past do affect our present and future lives. For example, I did not become 293 pounds overnight. (yes, this is a true weight after having my daughter, and while I was pregnant with her I weighed less, so the weight really doesn't have to do with having her.) My weight is a reflection of several things in my life. In my head it is caused by several things: My childhood, my choices and my excuses. It is caused from making bad eating habits. It is caused from making unhealthy lifestyle choices. It is caused from not taking care of Starr. Everyone tells me how beautiful I am, and they are right, I am. What I am not, is a healthy person. I have been working on the emotional, and spiritual aspects of my life for about three years now, however, it is time to face the one thing in my life that I have never wanted to face: My physical health. I think that if we really want to tap into emotional and spiritual health we also must tap into our physical lifestyles. (Really easy to write about and really hard to actually put words into motion.) I am the type of person that just doesn't get the realistic side of life very often. I am intuitive, creative and I love to live in a fantasy world. It is a large part of who I am. Unfortunately, this part of me has led me to more excuses than carter has pills, in the words of my dad. I am not trying to put myself down, or be unrealitic about losing weight, because quite honestly, it's real easy to put weight on, however, it's real hard to keep off. It hard to change habits that have been there, probably since I was a child and even knew about weight gain or loss. However, I have known about weight problems since I was a child. Many members of my family have struggled with weight issues. Matter of fact there is just a generational chain of obesity in my family, that quite frankly has not been broken. Whatever the reasons behind the weight, it still has not been broken, and quite honestly I don't want to pass that chain on to my daughter. I am dedicated to my daughter and I want her to understand what living a healthy life feels like. I have carried my weight around long enough, it's time to face the stupid numbers that don't define me. It's time to become a healthy gem.

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